New Month

Happy Rape-ril Everyone!!!!

i know it sounds bad but

around my house

nothing is that bad

(come on griz football)

(keep Rape-ril Rape-ril Free)

what do u say

maybe i should stop

maybe i should not

my month looks pretty pretty good

how bout urs

my finger hurts

well as always

there is something that hurts on my body

and its not my privates

although i always think i have a hernia

prolly do

well my finger hurts

and it was gettin good

except when u play bluegrass

to the tempo of 180 beats or so

and trying to climb hard

fuck

had a good weekend of music

and then this happened on monday night

yes

this is the Lil Smokies

doing some fuckin recordin

bout time huh

hopefully it will be more than an EP

here is the man with the plan

Travis Yost (from Clerics, etc.)

recording is very very shitty

especially with 5 ADHD bandmates

but

fortunately we got shit done

and monday will be our last hurrah

before sending demos out for band comps

and inbred bluegrass comps

not sure if i mentioned before

but i drank once

yea

adg;jasgj&*^#%)HDFGKI

that is what i thought the next day

shitty

but my friend Nikki

had fun

the day before

Nikki was Great Falls

and

she falls a lot

and had MS

but as friends

she cant pull that card

(sounds mean i know)

(but were good friends)

and

so up there

she was black out

and fell straight flat on her face

this time with consequences

other than that

i am excited for Deaner to be back

and be excited too

cuz

Jesse is on the lock down

sorry bud

and

ice, heat, ice, heat my finger

i climb, yeah

it is nice

it is nice outside

well prolly not the next 4 ta 5 days

went to loho one day

by my lonesome

and tested out

what is called "rock"

and it was good

and then

went with "dill pickle"

another day

and tried hard projects

yea

one is this one

it is a willie hard first move

and i feel after that

it will go, not easy

but better

i really really want to do this

but i need some right biceps (yes plural)

to do this thing

i started to warm up on the opening move

but soon, my bicep started to get sore

fuckinnn sweeeettttt

it will go down

itwill

and before that we tried a crimpy as shat thing

this is my 50mm lens shot

you can tell that i am a pro photo man

the day or two before

i went by myself

and walked up from the project

and this was what i saw

could be a poacher drop

niceee

or a yeti feasting place

finger still sucks balls

but nothin a little

vitamin I

and tape

oh and i drank for the first time

if anyone fuckin really wants to know

god is out

booze (nahhh)

i forgot what a hang over was

and the next day

suckkkked

so back to straight edge gospel junkie!

ta death

i am bored to death

but

tomarrow

is supposed to be very nice

supposed to cuz it is supposed to

finally

get to go outside and climb

been nursin the body

so i feel really good

parking lot wall

is going down all week

yea

boulderin training

and then

go to parking lot wall

i doesnt make sense to me either

i just need to get scared a little bit

and parking lot wall is a prettyyyy good place to do that

we will c

one of the lights burnt out in the drawing light

so

this is what i do with that

the pre slammm

and the "right when shit explodes"

thought it was a decent idea to wear a down

now i have a hole bout 1 inch long

o well

fun timessss

transfer

for days and days

i stand around the desk-table

and for days and days

i sit around the drafting table

why

well one is

i am makin some art

and two is

i have a show in july

and

almost in august

and three is

even though i dont really need a degree

in what i am trying to do

i am trying to use my degree

yeah art degree that is

now now

it taught me some things

i cant list them cuz there is not much

i am trying to read up on minimalism

cuz that is what kind of concept and explanation

i am trying to fathom

i finally got my tax returns

checked at 8:07 this morn

so

i am going to try and get jesse to go on a trip

but

he usually is on "lock-down-of-love"

with ya know

but

i might buy a few things with the return

cuz that is how i stimulate our economy

how bout u?

health

health is better

just green, and purple

and rainbow colors coming out of my nose

and throat-l area

the doctors will be happy now too

cuz i shoved out a pretty penny or 35000 or them

cuz i forgot my ole health bill came this month

this is also big factors of being stuck in ur house

and not sleepin in a sleepin bag

eatin eggs n cheese

n

noodles n parm

n

watchin friends make fun of friends

but luckly

i have a nice ole cup of sparker and brenda

to drink out of

love taking things from my folks house!!

fuck

one word describes a lot

what other words would describe this

damn

shitty

poop

bucket

well

i woke up this morn

pumped up to leave

and

for some reason my body

feels the need to

hate on me

my throat is really "fuckin" sore again

and i didnt know that 4 different colors

can come out of ur nose at once

so, i am on hold for leaving

this dark, cloudy town

fuck

Spontaneous

shit is random in my life

but all fully aware of well put together

went to work for 2 weekends in a row

and made cash galore in my pockets

put it all in the bank

and to the companys that bill my house

(fuckers)

and not i forgot that i get tax returns

love beating the system

(you can literally rape the government in tax season)

so now i have til the 10th of march

until i go back to work

and

so

i figured why not do something spontaneous

or random

like go meet sakirtam (sam and kirsten)

down in bishop for 3 weeks

nothing smarter than saving ur money like a homeless person

mhmmm

but first

last weekend was a doozy

watch a bunch for

mountain dew, fox racing, truck driving

meat heads compete for the

Montana Arm Wrestling Association

and

it was funny as shit

reminded me of Wyoming

here is the finalists

but luckly for them

they had to deal with this fuckin massive thing

and

ended up in 1st place

Meatheads, ha

they think they r all bad ass

but guess what

climbing gets u strong

and masturbating occasionally too

ha

and so i came out first

yes, that does say 1sat place

but actually

i wanted a souvenir from the weekend

so a took 1st 2nd AND 3rd place medals

(extras just laying around)

i need to stop collecting so much shit

oh goo news.

and maybe not for some

right when i got sick, ya

cant really go out

or smoke cigs

or anything cuz ya feel like death

so it is a good time to stop doing everything

like go sober

so not only do i save money

but

i have not taken, drank, anythinggggg

for 2 weeks 3 days

yes completely sober

not a drop of alcohol

(passed the major test of hanging with the Lil Smokies)

no drugs

nothing

sounds gay i know

but i am kind of likin it

no money to spend on shit now

and

i am kind of testing myself to see who long i can go

without doing anything

i think for a long time

ok ok

ok

the real story is i found god

duhhhh no shit right

no

just kidding dont believe in the good feller.

so after the weekend

or both weekends of crazy music

i shut down every cute girl that offered a shot

a beer

joints

a hang out at 3 am let get crazy

snus chew

patron tequila by the dozens

why

cuz i dont want to feel like this

or look like this

so i faked it and looked like this

and also

it is funny how pissed off

literally fuckin pissed!!

ur friends get when u dont want to go get a beer with them

cuz a beer in my friends or missoula wording is

get black out drunk

and someone will drive

hopefully the next post will be

from a sitting position at

the Looney Bean in Bishop CA!!!

I am Free

sometimes on a loan

$40 bucks, sure ill do it

what is it u want me to do

oh, nevermind, no thanks

usually, i am free

free to hang out

free at cost to have hanged out

and just free of everything

i finally got free of my sickness

that is death-ness in my terms

no good

my roomate said he thought i was dead

on day 3 though, i came out

of my room, ha

so, being a fucked up person

getting sick-er than -shit

is awesome

why so?

because i am a climber

and

i look at the positive aspects of death

like

i lost 7 pounds during that time

nothing like

drinking water

and drinking codeine

does wonders

that could be a climber diet.

look i even became a bit ra-tard

and i can see my ribs again

no it does not sound wierd

or narcissism

its called

healthy narcissism

(as a climber)

and blogs

or journal-n

as a think sometimes

does help with all this

cuz i get my thoughts down

hehe

haha

haha

hehe

great huh

well

i read a website the other day

yes, grade school graduate

and it had a top 21 things to do

to change ur life up

and 2 of the 21 were

.Put down the computer

and the other was

.Put down the computer

so

i took that and have been putting down the computer

and pickin up other electronic devices

like this little guy

another electronic device

but

the kindle fire is the shit

i read again

and i have more space because i gave all

my books back to the store

and

cuz i found out, just like music,

how to get every single book i want

for free

that does involve pickin up the computer

and downloading

but what ever

well

i guess i didnt get rid of every book

i collect "art coffee table books" now

and this is the newest edition to my edition

look how big that thing is

hell yea to graffiti.

one other thing

cuz ya know me..

it is funny for a girl calls her thang "my girl"

and "ur guy"

but i say "jay"

for hers or "jaybird"

right?

this also made me miss jordan

and

his hot new wife

very close

i think i am going to die

i cant do anything literally

watch tv, nope

open my eyes, nope

might write out a little will

dont worry i am thinkin of ya all

i gots a touchy feelee

usually i am pumped up for when it snows

only because it quiets the skiers down

but

it only makes them talk more

like

"nar shred pow pow"

and

"duddddeee, white nar"

but

unfortunately

i do not like cum shots in my face

or

excuse me

powder shots in my mouth

it is nice though

that now i can say

"its really snowee outside,

guess i better stay in"

instead of

"i just stayed in all day when it was really nice out"

apparently my friends dont like that

last night at 2:00 or maybe it was earlier

or later?

i took advantage of snow sports and made this

gods angel made out of 100% pure snow

this is what snow clothes look like

and ra-tard lady poses

ha

still the same ole same ole

i cant wait for february

cuz thats closer to older

right?

and

cuz i get to go to work 2 nights a week

every weekend

yesss

music though

sometimes i feel like this when i have to have fun

and other times

when i am going to conquer the world

and not give a fuck i feel like this

or just wantin hugs and kisses

once in a while i take hiatus'

from things

like this and that

and said and unsaid things

but i rekindled my non-hiatus time with my records

its like when u get off a problem "in the gym"

and u sit down

and u just stare at the wall

prolly cuz ur trying to make up problems?

hinthint

and u just stare and go touch a hold on again

and sit down again

and stare again

and then realize ur friend is sitting right next to u

oh, hey whats up

yea, that is what i have been doing with this wall

what shall i listen to

touch, nope

back up

step forward, touch, nope

hmmm

and then i think to myself

ipod are so simple

no

yea

touch

nope

stare

and then someone has been watching u

and not that i get embarrassed but

instead create a shy face

so they c about 1/2 ur face

like a sad puppy

the way they turn away when their sad

and

i step forward and go with a good ole

inbred bluegrass piece of art

until that person calls u an inbred

and then go back to square one

and recycle the same motions

over

and over

until a lady shows up

wait what time was it?

well, then u dont feel so bad

when u were getting all touchy feelee with vinyl

and neither does she

my new friends

so

my days have been going by really fast

yes, no job still

but i really dont need one

or

want one

been a tad bit slum lordin it

and

a tad homeless-ee bout it

after a whole day

i wonder what i did with that day

and

there is a lot on one

and

a lot on the other

i finally received my holiday package

from mother and father

and

i love getting packages from ma and pa

cuz

my mother sends them

(too hard for father)

and

since she knows the mail lady

(next door neighbor)

she does this

lucklee she uses 1000 stamps

and lucklee that neighbor of hers

doesnt stamp everyone

so

my roomate pointed out that

i can use every stamp on here

look

i already used three

lovin the system mother

other than that

i have been building benches

tables

chairs

and desks

in my ghar-aagge

and if u stain anything

walnut stain that is

it looks amazinggg

and some poly after

and it looks tackee,

but keeps the moist secretions of ur mugs out

it may look like a desk

but it is a bench

for tall people

or for my tall desk

maybe if i fix my whole house in the future

it will all be made for 6' and taller people

sorry midges

on that bench i sit and sit

everyday

and take a ruler day and day in

and draw straight shit after straight shit

but

i do enjoy

and chain smoke after chain smoke

i get some stuff done

this is my newest one

not complete yet but

soon.

and when i dont play massive amounts of xbox

with sean my roomate

i sit in the corner and chat with my friend

dont worry

its only a puppet?

im not sure what street character this feller is

but

i am starting to get back into ventriloquism

when i was in 7th or 8th grade

i got a ventriloquist dummy

for christmas

and it was bad ass

i practiced and practiced

cuz

it came with a big book

on "how to"

to bad i lost "ivan"

in my many moves here in missoula

but

my new friend will do for now

and

i think i am going to save up for a new dummy

or not dummy

thats mean

a new friend to talk to

Closer, I Get

Pretty soon

I should be a business man

deep down inside

but not my soul

i really want to

like, wear a suit everyday

get a shave every once in a while

and a hair cut

hot towel included

and

work more than 8 to 5

cuz

usual business men have after work meetings

drinks

prostitutes

constant lying to the mrs.

i dont actually want to

but

i think i am getting closer to one

a while ago i got a suit

cuz i wanted one, chh

and

on christmas this year

i drank decent wine

by myself too id say

(preparing for the future of busy-ness)

maybe all this thought

is cuz u are like ur father a bit

right?

well, he gives me shit

he gives me hugs

sometimes

its those 3/4th hugs

gives me guns

trys to give me cigs

do i smoke

no comment

and

this christmas

i got this from him

fuck yea

just imagine

a nice sport coat covering a tad bit

of the watch

yea

and prolly a man-a-cure

cuz im famous, right

i know it is a hang me down

but

also it might be a reminder

from father charles

that i should get in gear

and do something

cuz long ago

my tarot cards

said

i die a hero

yea

something is coming closer

i.. get.. it